Goats

Goats are way weird.

But they make me laugh.

The truth is

I hate living in Logan.

When I first moved here I was excited and hopeful that 

I'd make so many new friends, I'd have great experiences, I'd love my classes.

Sadly, that is not the case.

I tried to be outgoing for the first month.

I went to dances, barbecues, bingo nights, pancake parties, study groups.

But it just became hard.

I have never been that person that befriends everyone in the room.

I've had the same best friends since 8th grade.

And I miss them. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my family.

So much.

I didn't realize how hard it would be to leave the people I love.

Everyday seems worse than the last.

Maybe I'm being dramatic.

Maybe I've given up too early.

All I know is that my heart has been hurting for the past three months.

So here I am.

Alone. Depressed. Passionless. Angry
My eyes are red and blotchy as I write this post.

Longing for the place I call home and the people I cherish.

Nononono

November.

I can't believe it's November!

In celebration, here are somethings from Pinterest that I love.

I laughed way too hard at this for way too long

This is not even a joke.

This is how I feel about that fact that it's almost socially acceptable to play Christmas music.

This is probably the cutest Christmas decoration ever.

I'm so doing it on November 23rd.

Thinking of you

Jake let me take pictures with him.

Guys, this never happens.

Ever.

I was pretty stoked.

They are on my ipod so terrible quality.

But I will love them forever!

Also, this song has been stuck in my head for two days.

I love it.

React please

So there is this girl I blog stalk a little.

Mostly because she is dating my (kind of) ex.

They're cute together and everything.

I'm not jealous because I have Jake who is 1000000000x better in my opinion. 

Duh.

But every time she mentions him I wanna be like,

"I kissed him first."

Just to see their reaction.

Sometimes I think I live for funny reactions.

Of course I'd never say that.

But if it wasn't rude I might say that.

For the reaction guys.

Also, my hairs are straight.

Let the double takes begin.

Not Complaining

I was going to make a list of things that are good in the previous post since all I did was whine but I thought it should just be a new post.

There are positive things in my life people.

1. I have decided on a major! I'm an International Studies girl.

I'm really excited about this because now I feel like I have a purpose up here. 

And one of the classes I'm taking now counts toward it though I didn't know what I would be doing when I signed up for it. 

That was a nice, happy surprise.

2. My bridesmaid dress for the wedding is really pretty.

It's fun to feel exceptionally pretty every once in a while.

3. My bed is wayy too comfortable.

4. I get to be with all my favorite people for the majority of this week. 

That never happens.

5. Jake stares at me while we watch movies with love in his eyes then kisses my cheek.

It's probably the cutest thing ever.

6. I had sushi on Friday and it was magical. Magically delicious.

7. I have the best mom in the world.

I guess my complains and non-complains even out.

Life is pretty great.

One can always find things to be happy about.

Complaining

My brother is getting married this week!

And do you know what?

I get to be in Pleasant Grove for almost 5 whole days.

I'm super happy because it's starting to suck up here.

Reasons:

1. I'm thinking that my roommate steals my clothes when I'm gone.

2. Also thinking that she had sex on my bed this weekend.

3. Alsoo thinking that she steals my favorite pomegranate chocolates from Costco.

4. Someone used the rest of my coconut coffee creamer that I use for pina coladas.

These people don't even drink coffee.

5. It's getting cold. And it's getting cold in PG too but at least I have a fire place there.

6. I don't have a fire place.

7. I miss my family and my boyfriend and Shalla.

The End.