Smush

I'm terribly in love with this mashup.

The truth is

I hate living in Logan.

When I first moved here I was excited and hopeful that 

I'd make so many new friends, I'd have great experiences, I'd love my classes.

Sadly, that is not the case.

I tried to be outgoing for the first month.

I went to dances, barbecues, bingo nights, pancake parties, study groups.

But it just became hard.

I have never been that person that befriends everyone in the room.

I've had the same best friends since 8th grade.

And I miss them. I miss my boyfriend. I miss my family.

So much.

I didn't realize how hard it would be to leave the people I love.

Everyday seems worse than the last.

Maybe I'm being dramatic.

Maybe I've given up too early.

All I know is that my heart has been hurting for the past three months.

So here I am.

Alone. Depressed. Passionless. Angry
My eyes are red and blotchy as I write this post.

Longing for the place I call home and the people I cherish.

Thinking of you

Jake let me take pictures with him.

Guys, this never happens.

Ever.

I was pretty stoked.

They are on my ipod so terrible quality.

But I will love them forever!

Also, this song has been stuck in my head for two days.

I love it.

Complaining

My brother is getting married this week!

And do you know what?

I get to be in Pleasant Grove for almost 5 whole days.

I'm super happy because it's starting to suck up here.

Reasons:

1. I'm thinking that my roommate steals my clothes when I'm gone.

2. Also thinking that she had sex on my bed this weekend.

3. Alsoo thinking that she steals my favorite pomegranate chocolates from Costco.

4. Someone used the rest of my coconut coffee creamer that I use for pina coladas.

These people don't even drink coffee.

5. It's getting cold. And it's getting cold in PG too but at least I have a fire place there.

6. I don't have a fire place.

7. I miss my family and my boyfriend and Shalla.

The End.

Got some beef

I'm just going to complain.

I went home to PG this weekend.
       Came back to find all but a gulp of my almond milk gone.
Before I left I told my roommate she could use my milk if she needed (I bought almond and cow milk last time I went to the store).
       I just watched her put her mouth on my carton and drink.

NOT WHAT I MEANT!

I went to buy a parking pass and they were "out" of the ones for my building so I now get to park across the highway for the whole year. 

      It's mostly inconvenient.

I swept and vacuumed the whole apartment on Friday.

      Wait, did I do those things? 

Doesn't seem like it...

I forgot all my cutest bras at home.

      This is sad because fancy bras can make or break a day sometimes.

There are days that I want to live by myself.

But mostly with my tidy, loving, awesome family.

I miss those guys.

      

I saw Michalla today for the first time.

One of the harder things I've ever had to do.

Seeing her in the hospital with tubes everywhere, bruises on her arms, in so much pain,

it finally sunk it.

I've been hoping it was a dream all week.

She has acute myeloid leukemia and will be going through

chemotherapy,

radiation,

and bone marrow transplants.

I want to throw up right now.

Or maybe cry.

She is worried about the way she'll look when her hair is gone.

She is beautiful and always will be.

Michalla is perfect and beautiful.

Dazed and Confused

Today is a blur.

My best friend was diagnosed with Leukemia this morning.

On the bright side, it is very curable.

On the down side, she has cancer.

I hate the feeling of helplessness.

There is nothing I can do but love her so much.

Love doesn't make the pain and sickness go away though.

So helpless.

Fun Facts?

I've been terribly bored today.

That boredom has driven me to StumbleUpon.

And I have stumbled upon something...

something cool and gross.

A website listing random facts about life.

Here are some that are great and some that are disturbing.

-A turtle can breathe out of it's butt...ha ha, butt.

-Tears are made up of almost the same ingredients as urine...tears: the pee of your face.

-If you consume fast food on a regular basis you will swallow around 12 pubic hairs a year...how is that a thing that happens?

-A strawberry is not an actual berry, but a banana is...my whole life is a lie!

-A woman will spend about 3500 days of her life menstruating...that's just sick.

-Facebook Addiction Disorder is officially recognized as a mental disorder by psychologists...the world we live in....

-It's impossible for a female to use both of her elbows to touch her belly button, but men can easily do it...I tried and it's because of boobs!

Okay, it's late and I told myself I'd stop at page 40.

Had to cap it somewhere.

Click Click Money

All I want to do is shop right now.

Unfortunately, I'm stuck at home with no vehicle.

Quick (kinda) fix?

Online window shopping.

here

Since I like to try stuff on first this is just pretend.

here

Pretty clothes make my heart feel better though.

Totally Buggin

Here are some truths for ya.

• I don't like this place. It's just not designed well. So that makes me post less.
• I am getting the whole Adobe CS5 installed on my laptop very soon. Better believe I'll be changing things.
• This is my 100th post. Big day? I'm neutral about it.
• I watched Clueless yesterday and was laughing the whole time. Gem of the 90's.
• I have been talking to my roommates-to-be this coming fall semester and am very anxious so get to school. I already know it is going to be a blast.
• I painted my nails on Sunday. They turned out much better than expected and that made me happy and proud.
• Yesterday I was a loser and checked facebook and instagram way too many times.
• I kinda miss the beach. 

Weather, You Depress Me

It's was wayy too gloomy outside today.

Still made a video.

It's a gloomy one.

Surprise, surprise.

Watch.

Smile.

Try not to kill yourself.

Cuz it is dripping with gloom.

Happy Thursday, ya'll.